Since
I made the first call in February to Kristin & Stacy Tadlock to tell them
"I received the call/burden that they have been praying for, for
years" In the eyes of a little girl thousands of miles away, knowing in my
heart EVERYTHING was about to go CRAZY; CrAZy BiG LOvE that is. I have never
seen so much paper, paper chasing, studying and answering for every action you
have ever executed in your entire life. The “check the box questions & answers” is
the things that drives me into circles of how can you answer “this questions,
that question” with a check, yes or no short answer; although patience proves…
it all works out, you have plenty of opportunity to tell your story and should enjoy
the short answers when afforded.
This
process is defined by me as a diagnostic check on so many different
levels. I have read every resource link,
books and blogs known to the world of adoption, maybe not every one of them.. but
it feels like it. I have extended my
prayers until sometimes no sleep for the families and agencies that are CrAZy
BiG LOvE givers; this is a gift that comes straight from heaven above with such
conviction and sadly so many people cannot comprehend or will never know this
kind of love. Riding alongside someone and
going through the process comes nowhere close to understanding the things they
protect you from i.e., I remember getting the call from my cousin asking if I could
write a letter of reference for him that he and Kristin were adopting from
China; that started my wait; at this point they had not announced it to the
family next layer of protection. They
had already faced MONTHS of preparation and CrAZy BiG LOvE exhaustion. One year later; I had the opportunity to
travel three weeks to china to get their second and third daughters. I still
had no idea of the depth of involvement, I was struggling filling out the
papers simply for my visa and I pride myself on organization, fact finding and a problem
solver … mmm Diagnostic Check.
I can truly say that... I understand the feeling of judgment with every little answer that squeaks out of your mouth or that is written. I understand the feeling of thinking you are a better person than you really are. I understand the feeling of knowing nothing and feeling EVERYTHING. Most importantly, I understand the feeling of being LOVED by the highest power and fearing NOTHING!
"Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength." Isaiah 40:30-31 {Diagnostic Check}
Loving you today, until tomorrow
Tadlock Girls "CrAZy BiG LOvE"
I can truly say that... I understand the feeling of judgment with every little answer that squeaks out of your mouth or that is written. I understand the feeling of thinking you are a better person than you really are. I understand the feeling of knowing nothing and feeling EVERYTHING. Most importantly, I understand the feeling of being LOVED by the highest power and fearing NOTHING!
"Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength." Isaiah 40:30-31 {Diagnostic Check}
Loving you today, until tomorrow
Tadlock Girls "CrAZy BiG LOvE"
